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smdh2024-08-09 09:41 pm
sixillusions) wrote in smdh2024-08-09 09:41 pm
[closed] with yaywon dgm edition
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I need to think of better post titles
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It's true that it's been so long since Lavi's talked to complete strangers -- people who've never read a poster about him on a billboard, people he has no reason to suspect beyond all the usual reasons. It feels nice and freeing in a way that he's missed. People who know nothing about him and who he'll probably never meet again. There's something precious about them too,
Though as much as he likes not being known -- it doesn't stop the warm, pleased feeling in his chest when Kanda knows him. Even for something as simple as his food preferences. He knows Kanda is observant by nature, but there's a difference between noticing things and caring enough to recall them later, which Kanda rarely does. ...But he's doing it now for Lavi, like it's the most natural thing to do in the world.
If this was months ago, then Lavi would chalk it down to the sheer luck of having lived long enough for Kanda to notice him. He'd think nothing of it -- maybe muse on how even someone as antisocial as Kanda still lets Lavi linger, proof that there's no one in the world who can resist any of Lavi's personas. But the difference now is the very simple truth -- that this proof makes Lavi happy. He doesn't care about how everyone else in the world thinks of him, just the way Kanda does.]
That does sound real yummy. Hey, boss -- one soba and one yakisoba please -- oh, and...
[Lavi leans forward to whisper into the owner's ear, then slips the money across the counter. eventually, the owner returns with their date food, which Lavi takes with both of his hands, turning to Kanda]
Lead the way, Yuu!
[HE TRUSTS HIS INSTINCT TO FIND THE NEAREST SECLUDED SPOT...]
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If Kanda's aware of any of Lavi's thoughts, or if he's curious about what Lavi is whispering about, he doesn't let it show; he just waits, not particularly patiently but not as bad as Allen, with Mugen in hand and his arms loosely crossed. CASUALLY UNAPPROACHABLE as usual, the Kanda way.
Once Lavi's got their food, he nods, turning to lead the way. He's not worried about Lavi being able to follow him, considering Lavi's STUPID HEIGHT even if he's not that much taller. STILL. But Lavi is right, Kanda is good at finding secluded spots--there's a hill behind some of the festival booths that he noticed while they were wandering, so he heads in that direction. It's tall enough that most people chilling on the hillside haven't bothered to climb all the way up to the top, but not so tall that they're completely removed from the festival and its atmosphere; they can see the lights and watch people dance and play games and have a good time, all from a comfortable (safe) distance.
He doesn't bother to ask Lavi if this is a good spot, because of course he doesn't. He just sits down, setting Mugen down and holding out his hand for his food. GIB.]
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Lavi grabs Kanda and takes him somewhere that's way more secluded so they can (flushed) bang.... NO he just sits down next to Kanda as he hands him the soba and chopsticks, with also something extra?]
I asked him to fry up some lotus root! Didn't see any pumpkin though.
[there are a couple of pieces of lotus root tempura in the bowl... luckily Lavi left a nice tip in exchange for such service. the weirdest part about scawwy besides all the murder and monsters and curses is that food just appeared out of nowhere? WHO WAS COOKING ALL THAT FOOD BACK THERE!!! things Lavi forgot to ask about.
he sits cross-legged and starts eating, nom]
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The real tragedy here is that Kanda is not Luke, who practically exploded with dokis over some tomatoes--but Kanda does blink in surprise, and his face softens--or at least does the closest thing to it that Kanda is capable of.
His version of gratitude, at least with Lavi, comes in the form of having nothing to be grumpy about--he makes a noncommittal noise as he breaks the chopsticks apart and starts to eat as well, going for the lotus root first. Truly nothing beats food made by real people that they can see with their own eyes.]
It's not in season. [Kanda and his random array of knowledge thanks to TIEDOLL] Jeryy works with the science section guys to preserve it.
[Honestly he wouldn't be surprised if the Order had a wholeass indoor year-round farm, with some of the insane shit Jeryy can whip up on request]
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Just seeing that surprised blink is more than enough. He'd rather that than an effusive show of gratitude -- rather, this is probably as effusive from Kanda as he'll ever get, and knowing that doesn't dim his desire to see it again.
He snaps apart his chopsticks too, listening with a small smile on his face. Kanda likes to hear him rattle on, and Lavi does too -- he likes hearing the same from Kanda, what the other man knows and has seen and observed, that he feels comfortable enough to mention it in their conversations together instead of remaining close-mouthed, especially when he can just choose to do his favorite thing instead which is eating soba.... his one true love.]
Yeah? I forget sometimes that they can do normal stuff.
[normal science stuff like growing fruits and vegetables out of season as opposed to making insane robots that wear glasses and energy drinks that zombify you. hilariously, his tone is fond, because Lavi with his propensity for secrets and mischief has found so much of both with the science section]
All the emotion and thought sharing back in Scawwy reminded me of them.
[the weird fcking effects... and lavi didn't even get to drink a single superhell drink in the gy]
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[THAT'S IT THAT'S THE WHOLE TAG HE JUST PAUSES HIS EATING TO BE IRRITATED]
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Wasn't a real big fan, but -- [he nudges his elbow against kanda, teehee] I liked being in your head.
[this is a truth shaded in flirtation, clumsy in a way that it's genuine and not just a front he's putting on. UNFORTUNATELY some of those effects got him to LEARN MORE about Kanda and what kind of OBSESSED GUY would turn that down,]
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[If it had only been the one week, this would be a more sensitive subject--it would remind him too much of Wisely, and everything that happened before and after the Noah rifled through his memories. But it happened often enough after he died that he got used to it, at least enough that it doesn't set him off right now.
Instead, he grumbles into his soba--] You know too much about me already.
[But it's the same as his usual grouchiness, the way he tells Tiedoll not to call him "son," or the way he'd immediately say "no" if anyone asked him if he has any friends. God knows how long Lavi's studied him with that Bookman eye, and how closely, but some of what Lavi knows is only because Kanda let him in. Kanda knows that, even if he wouldn't admit it.]
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He knows too much about Kanda already, but it's not enough to satisfy.]
Right back atcha.
[He wonders if Kanda feels that way about him -- the desire to know.]
You're the only person who knows me like you do, y'know.
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[LAVI'S!!! ...Mostly. It was Lavi's choice to keep coming back after Kanda made it clear he could see through the fake smiles, but Lavi never asked him to pay as much attention as he has. He never genuinely told Kanda to notice, to remember things about him--not the little things, like Lavi's food preferences, and certainly not the big things, like the depths of his paranoia, or the way the people at the Order wormed their way into his heart the same way they did Kanda's.
Does he want to know more? Kanda wouldn't know how to answer that. He's so unused to wanting things in the first place, let alone things he can actually have. After Alma, he never thought he'd find anyone he'd feel comfortable around for hours, reading or walking or simply coexisting in mutual understanding. Even then, he passively absorbed most of what he learned about Lavi. It's rare that he lets himself be openly curious about anyone--most questions he's had about others slip by unspoken, and that was true about Lavi too, until Scawwy.
Besides, he knows the most important things already anyway: the sound of Lavi's breathing and the way his body shifts right before he blocks or lunges. The complexity of Lavi's devotion to Bookman, both his mentor and his duty. The way it felt to be without him, and the realization that, for the first time in years, he didn't want to be left alone.
It's not that he isn't curious at all. If he didn't want to know anything, they wouldn't be here now. When Lavi talks, he listens--it would be impossible to do that and never wonder, sometimes. But being as ravenous for details as Lavi is... the thought of that still feels a little frightening, like tempting fate. If he wants too much, too fast, too strongly...
He reaches over with his chopsticks, helping himself to a piece of meat from Lavi's food.]
It's because you talk so much. [AT LEAST BE NICE WHILE YOU'RE STEALING FOOD]
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[HIS PORK???? Luckily, he's not ALLEN so he's not gonna attempt to fight Kanda to the death on this romantic hill overlooking the festival beyond. Instead, he just finds this behavior CUTE... like when a cat leaps onto the counter and steals some of your fish because it loves you so much... uwah.... anyway it's not about the PORK it's about this accurate CALL OUT of his CHARACTER.
he considers pretend-sulking for a bit, but while other people would think it's cute... kanda would not.... he compromises by leaning his head on top of kanda's, weh]
Yeah, but not everyone listens the way you do.
[some people (LIKE ALLEN) JUST TUNE HIM OUT... or some people (LIKE BOOKMAN) beat his ass for running his mouth all the time...]
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He makes up for it by letting Lavi rest his head, even though it means he has to lift his bowl so as not to jostle him off. He's in a good mood, enough that he'd lean against Lavi in return if he wasn't eating--maybe he will when he's done. For now, he just makes a vague sound of agreement.]
That's just how people are. [For the most part, anyway. They've both seen it a hundred times--the people who simply wait to speak instead of truly listening, or the ones who don't even pretend to care.
Although, if he thinks of the people they know and care about--] They listen more than you think.
[He doesn't specify who "they" are, figuring he doesn't need to.]
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Speaking of people...
[their people, who Lavi hasn't seen for an entirety of a mg's time]
I guess it'll be a while until we see 'em again.
[especially if Allen is still on the run when they catch up with him, lavi thinks, having no idea that he'll see Link again out of everyone in dgm]
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Kanda sighs, putting his chopsticks down.]
...I've still got my golem, if we really need it. [He'd rather not since they last thing they know is that he kicked some CROW ass and absconded with Johnny, but. At least they have a connection, if they get really desperate.] But if they aren't sticking to that receipt list, then I have no idea where they're headed.
[At least they didn't have to try and catch a train out from whatever country Scawwy was in. Though, admittedly, Kanda wonders if it might've been better if they'd had to--if they'd had a built-in excuse for taking their time, instead of the unspoken meandering they've been doing.
He watches the people below them, quietly mulling that over. After a bit, he glances at Lavi. As straightforward as ever:]
Do you want to head back?
[Lavi had said he wanted to stick together, but helping Allen is Kanda's guilt, debt-driven mission, not his. Kanda wouldn't be angry with him for missing everyone else back at the Order.]
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I'm worried about 'em. [especially now that they know there's a rogue Innocence out there, apparently masquerading as a human] But I'm more worried about Allen. The others have each other at least.
[Allen apparently has Johnny, and sometimes just having someone to protect can do a lot of good, especially for someone like Allen, but the fact of the matter is that Johnny is still a civilian, at the end of the day. Easier to protect someone if you have two other people to rely on.
Even better if Johnny has someone to protect Allen from him too. He doesn't voice it, but his brow furrows anyway, a thought he knows Kanda would understand.]
'Sides, I said I was gonna stick by you. Unless you want me to go back?
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Maybe that's why, instead of his characteristic grouching or some dry, rude remark, he shakes his head slightly and goes back to eating.]
You're fine. [LACKLUSTER..... but it's the closest to an I want you here as he'll say.]
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Hehe. [HEHE] I like you too, Yuu!
[the moment of truth: that Lavi acts like a stupid idiot as part of his persona, but there are times when he is genuinely a stupid idiot, and maybe that goes hand in hand with liking someone so much that you have to be a fool about it... there's no more emotion share but if animal crossing flowers could bloom at this moment....]
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Don't push your luck, Stupid Rabbit. [YOU ARE LITERALLY DATING]
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Is kanda done eating yet]
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[LEANS IN FOR A KISS!!!!]
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he immediately grabs Kanda’s wrists]
Wait wait wait!!!
[DONT THROW HIM]
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Anyway he waits... like the kind and generous person he is...]
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